Allegorical Littera

Allegorical Littera

Friday, July 20, 2018

Slipped Masks:

Slipped Masks is a dark thriller about how the need for love and companionship becomes twisted into obsession, possession, jealousy, violence and murder.

Themes: sociopathy, narcissistic abuse, personality disorder, Clinical Lycanthropy, crime, murder.

A percentage from sales of this book is donated to Multiple Sclerosis (MS) research.

Follow the link below to buy my book in Paperback or Kindle:

Back cover blurb:

I can’t call you because if he hears me talking on the phone he’ll hit me again. He scares me. I know sooner or later he’s going to kill me. I’ll text you again when I can. I love you, Casey. I’ll spend the rest of our lives proving to you how much I love you. Please come. Please save me …

With only text messages to guide him, Casey Byrne is on the hunt, racing across five states to save his ex-girlfriend, Madison.

Casey loves Madison deeply and wants desperately to save her life and rekindle their relationship.

But the closer he gets to her, the more surreal his journey becomes as the dead bodies pile up in his wake.

Follow your imagination:

In support of libraries:

Author humor:

Introvert humor:

Friday funny … because the weekend is here!

You can’t compare one multiple sclerosis journey to another:

by Penelope Conway
July 19, 2018

Have you ever had something like this happen?

You share your multiple sclerosis journey with someone and they proceed to tell you how their approach to MS or some other ailment is the only way you should be living? That because you go to doctors and take meds, you are doing it all wrong? That you wouldn’t have the struggle you are having if you would just do things their way? That if you only ________ (fill in the blank) you would feel better?

It can get extremely frustrating when someone assumes they know your body and your journey better than you do. Comparing illnesses or even progressions of the same illness between two different people never works. You just can’t fit one person’s life into someone else’s box and think they will be able to function the same. Life just doesn’t work that way. MS doesn’t work that way.

Think about it like this. Two car accidents happen on the very same day. Both involve being rear-ended and both happen during early morning rush-hour traffic. The first accident totaled both cars injuring everyone involved. The second one was a minor fender-bender.

Both were accidents. Both involved cars being rear-ended. Both happened on the same day. But once you get past those facts, they are vastly different. You simply can’t compare the two after labeling them as accidents.

The same goes for a diagnosis of multiple sclerosis. Two people can experience similar symptoms. Two people can show clusters of lesions on MRI scans. Two people can go through a similar path to diagnosis. Yet both will face different progressions and struggles.

One might be able to function okay for years with only minor limitations and another may progress rapidly as MS ravages their body. Did one person eat better, choose a better method of treatment, follow a better exercise plan?

The answer…NO!

You can’t compare two cases of MS and assume an aggressive form of MS can be managed the same as a slow progressing form of the disease. You can’t even assume two different people living with the same type of MS will experience the exact same struggles or recovery. After determining MS is the cause of a person’s difficulties, there’s just no comparison. Two different people, two different environments, two different bodies, two different DNA structures, two different lives.

Most people with MS may not be able to run a marathon, but for those that can, I am extremely proud of you. I’m excited for your enthusiasm to accomplish such a tremendous feat and am cheering you on as you go.

But I’m also cheering on the ones that struggle to get out of bed in the morning. I’m rooting for the ones that need hours just to shower and get dressed. I’m standing with the ones that can’t stand…even though I’m only standing on the inside myself.

Each one of us have our own daily accomplishments to be proud of. Just because mine involve less strenuous activities than someone else doesn’t mean I’m not pushing with every ounce of strength I have left in me in order to complete them. My Mount Everest may appear to be an ant hill in comparison, but to me it’s a monumental moment when I conquer it.

I may not finish first, tenth, or sixty-seventh. I may be the last one crossing the finish line as I use the final bits of strength that I have left…but I’m making it.

Never let anyone cause you to feel unimportant, less-than or as if you should be doing things differently. You are amazing just as you are. You are a champion beyond compare. I’m cheering you on as you take your Everest and I’m proud of your accomplishments in the face of the impossible.


In support of Multiple Sclerosis research:

Twitter hashtags:

#BikeMS #brain #CureMS #demyelination #disease #FightMS #FuckMS #FuckYouMS #FUMS #lesion #MovingMountainsForMS #MS #MSawareness #MSAwarenessMonth #MSeducation #MultipleSclerosis #MSstrong #MSSucks #MSwarrior #myelin #mymsme #OMS #stumblingprincess #ThisIsMS #vertigo #WalkMS #WalkTogether #WeAreStrongerThanMS #WorldMSDay


New Greeting Cards:

A percentage from sales is donated to Multiple Sclerosis (MS) research.

Blank inside cards for your own message.

Suitable for any occasion.

If you would like any of my pictures adapted for: clothing, home or office accessories, greeting cards, etc … please email and let me know.

We are happy to modify for individual and personalized orders.

Click on the images below to be redirected to the Zazzle store:

Cloudscape / Noir


Green Earth

High Noon / Noir

Tabby Cat

Tabby Cat

Green Earth

Green Earth

Candle Light

Green Earth


Noir City

Green Earth

My emotions seem to have a mind of their own:

by Penelope Conway
July 17, 2018

There are a lot of things about multiple sclerosis that I just don’t like. I’m not a fan of brain fog moments, weak and numb body parts, or trembling hands, but one of the worst symptoms I have to deal with is not being able to properly manage my emotions. It’s really, really weird too.

That area of my brain is damaged with numerous lesions. It sure makes conversations with me interesting. I have been known to laugh for no apparent reason, cry without being provoked and even get angry when I’m truly happy and peaceful. How do you explain that to someone you’ve just met?

I have been on anti-depressants before to help with the crying part. It took a few tries to find the right one that would work for me but it was worth the time it took. It didn’t stop all the waterworks but did help me manage them better when they came.

The one symptom though that I still have no clue what to do with is the outbursts of frustrations.

It’s hard to even describe exactly what happens.

One moment I may be enjoying my day and the next I may instantly become frustrated and irritable. It takes everything I’ve got to keep things in check and to balance those emotions out.

Thankfully the people around me understand what’s going on and help me to get through those times. Instead of judging me, they love me.

I was sitting on my couch the other day cutting a cantaloupe. I was using my special cutting board that has uniquely placed nails positioned on the board to hold onto the item I’m cutting and was using my rocker knife that gives me a bit more control as I cut, when a few seeds fell on the floor. No big deal, right!

Immediately, I broke down into tears. Sobbing tears too, not just a little bit of water down the cheek. What? It was just a few seeds. When things like that happen I have to keep reminding myself that everything is okay and use every bit of strength I have to take back control.

Later in the day I was talking with a friend. We were discussing an idea I had to make a walkway along the side of my house to give me a clear path to the back yard so I don’t end up leaving wheelchair tracks in the grass. As I was talking, my words got a bit mixed up and the conversation turned into more of an argument than a casual conversation. What?

There was no reason for that. It was an amazing idea and we were both getting excited about making it happen. My weird outburst made no sense at all. I’m so glad she knew exactly what was happening and helped me to get through that emotional imbalance.

I’ve always told people that MS will weed people out of your life. Emotional chaos like that is one of the reasons why. Some people just can’t make sense of the mixed up emotions some of us have to live through. Even those of us with the imbalance don’t get it.

Oh, how I wish my emotions weren’t so chaotic. I wish a lot of things were different, but I’m so thankful to know that I’m not alone. Many MSers face the very same things I do.

Don’t beat yourself up when your emotions shift unexpectedly and seem to run amuck in their own world of confusion. You may not have control over everything that happens to you but you do have a say in being able to push through those moments and come out on the other side.

It takes a lot of strength, patience, pauses and deep breathing, but it is manageable. Hang in there and find something to smile at today. Smiling is always welcome here.


In support of Multiple Sclerosis research:

Twitter hashtags:

#BikeMS #brain #CureMS #demyelination #disease #FightMS #FuckMS #FuckYouMS #FUMS #lesion #MovingMountainsForMS #MS #MSawareness #MSAwarenessMonth #MSeducation #MultipleSclerosis #MSstrong #MSSucks #MSwarrior #myelin #mymsme #OMS #stumblingprincess #ThisIsMS #vertigo #WalkMS #WalkTogether #WeAreStrongerThanMS #WorldMSDay